OK, not all of you were privy to the conversation in which I meantioned it, but I'm making a generalized post, about AS, it's symptoms... and why I think I have it.
Quoting from one of the many symptom lists I found (I would cite but I forget which one now). My Notes in PURPLE (woo)
An individual's symptoms can range from mild to severe. An individual may have all or only some of the described characteristics, and they may exhibit more problems in unstructured social settings or new situations that involve social problem-solving skills.
Social problems
Although these children may express an interest in friendships, they have difficulty in making friends and may be rejected by peers; often these children are loving and affectionate with their immediate family
I love meeting new people. I like the idea of learning a new point of view or set of interests from a new person. I jokingly call myself a "watchmaker" (but not in that creepy Sylar way) because I like to get in people's heads and find out what makes them tick. I want to know how they feel about things, how they react, everything there is to possibly know about a person, to the point at which I am sometimes intrusive or innapropriate in my queries. It's almost like an "only the strong can survive" concept, insomuch as I pretty much feel you've got to genuinely like me to put up with some of my oddness.
Socially inappropriate behavior
I often communicate in one-sided conversations (jokingly to use the tagline from "An Emperor's New Groove", "It's all about me!"). These conversations tend to be overly verbose, contain large vocabulary words, and maintained in a way where the other party has difficulty "getting a word in egdewise". I also don't know how not to make a point, once I've got one in my mind. No matter how hard I tell myself to hold back, I willl often blurt out what comes to my mind so that I "don't forget it" even if it means talking over someone else and interrupting the conversation.
Lack of understanding social cues
I don't often find myself comprehending until after the fact that my actions could be considered rude (i.e. checking my cellphone for messages when in the middle of a conversation, interrupting aconversation or talkign over another person, not makign eye contact, etc.). I don't awalys understand when someone is being sarchastic, unless they make it overly obvious.
Difficulty judging personal space
This actually started in high school. I had this really odd theory that the world would be a much better place if people would just give total strangers hugs. So I use to go to Harvard Sqaure and hug random people I had never met before. That eventually stopped, but I often find myself either being too intrusive to people I don't know well or in reverse a little too held back in situations where I really should be close. For example I have a hard time compensating for other people's grief at say a funeral. I know they are sad and I want them to feel better (I have the empathy for it) but socially I don't know exactly how to act or what to say to accomplish that so instead I kind of back-off or hide.
Difficulty understanding others' feelings
This trait I don't have. I understand people's feelings, sometimes to a fault. My problem is more on the lines of knowing what to do with that information once I have it.
Rigid social behavior due to an inability to spontaneously adapt to variations in social situations
If you're reading my other blogs, I almost don't have to answer this. Yeah I don't like change. It's like trying to pull a stubborn mule sometimes. I often joke about how I'm a Taurus born in the Year of the Ox and thatmakes me twice as resistant to change. To the point (as with the current situation) I don't even know how to change even when I know the change will be good for me. One of my worst qualities which I am slowly working to remedy (thanks to all my friends, you guys are the greatest).
Abnormal communication patterns
Awkward or inappropriate body language, including limited use of gestures and absent or inappropriate facial expressions
I am jerky, hyperactive and only with people I implicitly trust will maintain eye contact for more than a few seconds at a time (any longer feels like somehow you are inviading my soul and makes me super uncomfrotable). I fidget (without noticing it myself) to the point that it annoys other people, and often will make the weridest faces at the most inopputrune time (sticking my tongue out when someone is telling a serious story).
Unusual, formal style of speaking
Again, another one that doesn't really need much explanation if you've ever read one of my blogs or recieved an e-mail from me. I talk a lot, often like I'm writing/reciting a novel, and there are lots of huge words, internalizations (normally presented in parenthesis) and run on sentances and paragraphs.
Difficulty understanding nonliteral and implied communication
I don't really "read between" the lines too well. And when I do manage to accomplish that, I always read into the implied topic with too many variables to really understand it. For example I might imply that you don't get along with a certain person, even though you have never said that directly because you made point a in one conversationand point b in another and I then link them to come up with conclusion c. And that once having deduced that will look at why it is that you feel that way from at least three points of view (yours, the other persons and my own as an outside observer on the subject).
Impairments in the modulation of volume, intonation, inflection, rate, and rhythm of speech
I don't think I have this trait. Actually yes, yes I do now that I think about it. I am sometimes loud, esp. when I get together with friends I haven't seen in a while. I get so excited I forget to kind of curb my enthusiasm. But otherwise I would say no I don't think I do any of these other things (but then I don't really listen to my own voice from an outsider view unless I'm listening to my own answering machine message.. so maybe one of you has a better idea?)
Speech may be tangential and circumstantial, often with irrelevant comments
They don't call me the "random tangent girl" (that's my superhero name BTW) for nothing you know. Pop culture references, private jokes and general weirdness abounds whenever I talk for long periods of time, and in the end it never links up alltogether nice like it does in an Eddie Izzard skit ;-)
Conversation style characterized by marked wordiness
Idubitably! HA! That's a joke, yeah you see how I did that right? Again a bit of a repetition here, but yeah I go overboard in explaining my point and use scrabble-tastic words to prove it.
Difficulty with "give and take" of conversation
Again a bit redundant as I already cover it, but if you need proof that I do this you can totally ask Chris, Terri or Paul.
Lack of sensitivity about interrupting others
LOL, ask Terri's mom, I did this to her only last week, and didn't even realize I did it until I got home!
Activities
Intense interest in a particular, often very restricted, subject that dominates the individual's attention
If you've ever listen to me go on and on about movie plots, music history, ancient Persia, Krisha religion, or character languages.. then you know yeah I have really random, often viariable, specific interests which when I am into them I persue with a fervent endeavor, until I get distracted by something else (oooh.. shiny!)
Inflexible adherence to routines; has repetitive routines or rituals
I don't have OCD, but do have to for example take out all of my cds and re-alphabetize them before putting them away (even if only one or two cds are out of order). When I used to work I had to do my paperwork in the same order everytime, or I would get confused. These are just a few examples, but if I find something that works I don't like to mess with it. I also make really strange rules for myself, like when I used to take the train, I always thought it seemed foolish to take the train to the stop after the location you actually had to go to. I would instad get off at the previous stop and walk, even if a walk backwards from the later stop was shorter. Also for years I would take 495 to Carver for King Richard's even though it is much easier to take 93... because that was the way I knew and didn't want to deviate in fear of becoming lost.
Apprehensive about change, may have difficulty transitioning from one activity to another
Not so much this thing. I can't focus at all and will often stop in the middle of something and go on to somethign else, to the point at which I often have a number of things unfinished at any given time. (Right now I am in the middle of five books, two movies, and about three video games.. the fun part is trying not to get all the stories mixed together!).
Sensory sensitivity
Sensitivity to sound, touch, taste, light, sight, smell, pain, and/or temperature
There's an ongoing joke about my "bionic" sense of hearing and smell. I can tell you what my neighbors down the street are cooking, and the sound of even a faucet dripping in the middle of the night is like a jackhammer to me, when no one else can hear or smell those things. I do the pain/temperature thing to a lesser extreme. I sometimes don't know if its more desensitization, but when I used to work at the coffee shop I would often spill hot liquids on myself and not even be phased (including a fiasco with a stickybowl of clam chowder which gave me first degree burns but didn't hurt at all until I noticed my skin was red and swollen. I also used to entertain children in grammar school by having someone pick me up by my har and twirl me around.. that one was always a crowd pleaser. Maybe I should have become like one of those dudes you see pulling the busses or whatever (on a slightly unrealted note but just because I am talking abotu sideshow like tricks, I also used to entertain the other kids at school by swallowing rocks and coins and then regurgitating them {non-pukey})...
Sensitivity to the texture of foods
No, not so much. Though I detest the mushroom.. the whole concept of them makes me green... bleargh
Motor skill delays
History of delayed development of motor skills
The only thing I really ever had difficulty with is handwrting, toherwise I developed normally. Indcidentally the handwriting did not improve with age, I should have been an M.D.!
Visible clumsiness and poor coordination
My whole family is extremely clumsy, including me, so I always just assumed it was hereditary...
Deficits in visual-motor and visual-perceptual skills, including problems with balance, manual dexterity, handwriting, rapid movements, rhythm, and imitation of movements
Yeah I already said the handwriting thing. Though I do have crap posture if that's worth anything. I used to take dance and gymnastics, I always had a tough time with it, but I wouldn't say I was any less balanced or coordinated than most kids who try those things and don't have a propensity for it.
So yeah, as of right now I am more or less a "self-diagnosed" aspie. I have not yet gone to a prefessional as I have been trying to work out my personal drama first. I have taken two different personality tests and both have come out positive(albiet borderline) for AS. But I guess I just wanted to fill you all in what it's about and why it is I think I have it and that sort of thing.
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