Finally got my birthtime, and am now able to calculate knowing my ascendant. Therefore some of these changed (to even more accuarte and creepier statements), enjoy!
So you remember that Astrology book I got about a month ago. Man it's a lot harder than I thought it would be. In fact the numerology is as well. Lots of math and stuff, but I think after I read it over a few times I'll get the hang of it, mostly I have issues remembering what the formulas are off the top of my head (it's like I need crib sheets) and what each number/combo that sort of thing means. Again with some practice I guess it'll become easier. In the meantime I've gotten some readings done that are again, frighteningly accurate. Update 5/29/08: I've also purchased "Astrrology for Dummies" as a companion book.
I did a full birth chart. You don't actually plot out points like you used to. Apparently you can, but you need a lot of other books like Atlas' and all that to do it, which I'm not interested in investing in at this particular time. There's software that instead tells you where all the planets are and from that you can then do the charts using the books. Most astrologers these days use the software, so if it's good enough for them, it's good enough for me. So I got my chart from Update 5/29/08: http://alabe.com. and the following translation came with the chart, but I will also (once I've worked it out using the book) will post my own interpretation at a later time, for now here's the freebie:
What this basically tells me is the following (my notes in purple):
Rising Sun is in 18 Degrees Virgo.You tend to be very shy and not very self-assertive. You are supercritical about how you appear to others. Even though you may think you are uninteresting and dull, you are actually quite soft-spoken, orderly, neat and very likeable. You are a perfectionist with high standards, and at times you can be quite tactless in pointing out the faults of others. Very practical, efficient and puposeful, your appearence and bearing reflect your need to appear graceful, sensible and reserved. You have a crisp, no-nonsense approach to dealing with others. Never lazy or self-indulgent, you tend to be dedicated to the work ethic.
*Holy crap. As much as the last reading was accurate, this one is like almost eerie. Planets get out of my mind! Seriously! Shy - check, worried about appearence- check, think I'm uninteresting (yet people still talk to me) - check, soft-spoken - check. I am not however neat and orderly, I could be but I've often got better things I'd rather be doing than straightening out (also I was sick of housework before I even graduated High School, as my parents both worked and used me as thier personal maid). I am kind of tactless, though I don't mean to be. It's the scathing sarchastic sense of humor I have, 9 times out of 10 people find it funny, but that 1 in 10 I can sort of hurt someone's feelings pretty bad. I can't do anything without a purpose. I have to already know what the finished project is in my mind and work towards it. I'm not one to just sort of dabble around with crap hoping it will come out right. I have visions, and work towards those visions. Also efficient, yeah I never thought I was and then realized recently that I am. A good example is this, when playing EQ2, I for some reason have a good portion of the game memorized (by accident) and as such I know that say there are 5 quests that all involve killing the same Mob (NPC) and therefore will not fight said mob until I have picked up all 5 quests, so that I can accomplish them all at once. My husband likes to tease me about it, I dunno I just figure it's the strategist in me inherited from my Grandfather (who was an Army General). As far as graceful, I'm not, I'm really quite clumsy, but I like to give off the illusion that I'm graceful. This is where the high heel fetish I have comes in, I'm naturally a toe walker (when not in shoes) so I feel most at balance wearing a 3" or better (preferably platform) heel. If I could float or levitate I totally would. Sensible and reserved, those kind of come naturally. Other than this situation with my husband, I don't really fuck around when it comes to other people. I either like you or I don't and sometimes maybe that's too black and white, I'm slowly learning to become a little bt more in the gray area about it, but when I do like you, try not to piss me off, I take ages sometimes to forgive... though inevitably I do. I'm totally lazy and self-indulgent, at least now that I'm at home. I've always been self-indulgent actually, I'm the sort of person who goes out Christmas shopping and picks up say one gift for one person on my list and then buys like three for myself. Lazy I was not when I used to get paid to work, I was all about work-ethic. I was getting paid to do something, so I did it with my best 100% effort whenever humanly possible, again another thing I'm trying to work back into. I;ve forced myself to work on the "Gypsy Princess" bookcase at least once a day each day this week.. so maybe there's still hope for me.*
Sun is in 22 Degrees Taurus.
You are known for being patient, slow moving and careful - you love to prolong and savor enjoyable times. You appreciate and need comfort, ease and warm surroundings. Be careful of a tendency to become placid and self-satisfied and to overeat (especially sweets). You require strenuous situations in order to grow and mature properly, even though you try to avoid them. Affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger - when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your clam returns. You demand real results from any situation - abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. Very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things. You potray an earthy, physical sexiness that others find quite seductive.
*LOL, the start of this sounds like I should have gotten Butterball on that Cenobite quiz. Anyways if ever there was someone who was slow to act on things, it's me. At least when it comes to something I come up with on my own, but also even when given a task (when I used to work) I got it done on time, but would spend a lot of extra time on it than I needed to in order to meet the deadline because I had to be so methodical about everything. Even when I used to paint sets, half the reason I failed out of college was because I'd be up all night making sure everything looked perfect (to the point when doing the "Noises Off" set, I literally hand painted patterns in the wallpaper and everthing). But what I really meant is when I come up with something on my own I usually sit around for days sometimes months going over every possibility before acting, just to make sure it's even a good idea to begin with, and once decided it is that I don't mess it up. I like going to events, but my alltime favorite thing ever to do with friends is to just go to someone's house and just chill, listen to music, and just shoot the shit for hours on end. Sometimes I probably even used to wear out my welcome (ask Chris or Paul about how many times me and Terri would just invite ourselves over and hang out all day long). But I just love that concept of having great conversations in a cozy environment... exchanging ideas... actually come to think of it maybe Governments ought to be more laid back, instead of suits and conference tables just have some couches and chill music and come dressed casual.. I bet they'd get on a lot better. I doubt there's any danger of me ever becoming self-satisfied, I'm far too critical of pretty much everything I do. I hate strenuous situations, I'm sure a lot of us do, but it's true, if it wasn't for the trying ordeals in my life I would never move on to the next thing. For example I wouldn't even be doing this astrology thing or the bookcase right now, except I was fed up with being a "happy-housewife" and wanted to get back to doing the things that I used to enjoy that I hadn't in so long. I've been told I am one of the most patient and even-tempered people that most of my friends have ever met... of course most of them have never seen me angry, but even that sometimes takes months and even years of things piling up before I snap. But again, you're better off not having me get to that point, at minimum it takes me about 2 years to really fully forgive, and depending what you have done it can be much longer even than that (remember how I recently said I got back in touch with two people I hadn't talked to in over 15-20 years?). I think I covered the abstraction bit already, but yeah if I can't at least visualize the outcome it's not going to be something I give a shit about. As I said I'm hyper-critical of myself, and thus my art. I have the capacity for it and people have said it's good, but I always think it's shite and normally don't show it round too often. I think I'm recently deciding I'm better in the solid objects field (furiture, jewelry) than say my drawing or painting (which I never like). And yeah I dunno I'm not concited enough to agree with that last sentence, I don't feel attractive or sexy at all unless someone wants to give me an ego boost and tell me otherwise, LOL.*Moon is in 14 Degrees Libra.Affectionate, warm and friendly, life must be a "beautiful" experience for you. Unpleasantness should be avoided at all costs. You tend to overlook other people's faults and you would rather give in and fight. You are uncomfortable with strangers, but at ease and sociable with friends and associates. Indeed, you would rather socialize than work - you can use your prrodigious charm to avoid unpleasant tasks. You need the support and assistance of another in order to get you started on any new project - you are not a self-starter. Be careful of a tendency to be overly self-indulgent (i.e. lazy). Your refined aesthetic sensibilities attract you to music, dance, art and any other cultured activity.
*Life certainly be "beautiful" as long as you know where to look for it (and in my case not so depressed at that particular moment that I actually notice it). I have always felt that it is a bit subjective on the people you choose to spend it with, when I'm with my friends it's good times and easy to notice and apppreciate what life offers to you, but othertimes when I'm having a rough patch it's hard to get there. However if I didn't believe in the possibility, I would have turned it in a long time ago. I love this sentence about the unpleasantness - like there are people out there that actively seek it? Of course you would try to avoid it, just sometimes it doesn't really avoid you. I amost always overlook people's faults. This is how for example I even still eventually forgive and forget with people who I've felt have done me wrong in some way. I kind of try to get into thier head and look at it from thier perspective and almost always come to the conclusion that 90% of the time what has transpired is more of a personality trait that a purposeful slight, and as such since the good points of that person are also personality traits you kind of just let the good parts outweigh the bad and learn to accept that sometimes you're just not going to see eye to eye on every single item all of the time. I only never forgive people who I feel have intentionally hurt me out of spite and/or people whose bad traits outweigh thier good. And yeah as should be obvious, I don't like being in fights with people, I almost always concede. I am socially inept sometimes with people I don't know. It's a wonder I've made any friends at all, all I can say is it's apparently a good thing that the people that do like me somehow think my awkwardnessis cute or endearing in some way. It usually takes me at least three or four good conversations for me to really be at ease with someone, but once I consider you a friend you're pretty much in for life (assuming you don't do one of the previously mentioned items). My prefect sort of job is one where I can both socialize and work at the same time. That's why I liked set design you normally were working in close proximity with people so you could talk about all sorts of topics while still doing something artistic and productive at the same time. I almost always need a good shove to get started on something. Thank goodness again for supportive and persistent friends. On the flip-side of this once someone discourages me from something, it's really hard for me to overcome that. So in otherwords never be critical of something I'm working on until after I've finished it, or else it'll probably end up in the wastebin. Yeah, I'm a culture snob... I am naturally attracted to art, music or anything unusual or avant-garde. Normalcy bores me. I don't know why.*Mercury is in 15 Degrees Taurus. A slow and careful thinker, you like to present ideas visually and concretely. Abstractions are quite difficult for you to understand. For you, everything must be practical and useful in order to merit your attention. You are a perfectionist - you enjoy being skillful enough to handle the dexterity required of fine craftmanship. Cautious and conservative in your thinking, you are very slow to change your opinions. You are more apt to respond to an appeal to your feelings than to an appeal to logic or reason.
*A bit of reiteration on most of this. What I think is important to not as when the same traits keep coming up in the different houses like this, the more likely those are your strongest traits. In other words the more times it says that I am something, the more likely it's true. Things to add to this: I like the craftmanship bit of this, mostly because this is my new current goal and so far it's really been working out pretyty good for me. This helps encourage me in the sense that maybe this is what I should be doing after all. Secondly I'll just mention briefly that the apeeal to feelings vs. logic is half true. While yes an appeal to my sensitive forgiving side will make me stop being angry long enough to sit and think on it, eventually that calculated industrious side kicks in and thus the logic and reason. I often contemplate the 100 different ways in which a situation could play out. Sometimes this won't work out to the other parties advantage in the long run.*
Venus is in 01 Degrees GeminiYou are friendly, warm, open and tolerant toward others. You love variety in relationships, indeed you may even prefer to maintain more than one relationship at a time! Very witty and humorous, you have the ability to amuse and please others. This makes you quite popular. You love to play the field and thus find it difficult to settle down and make any deep emotional commitments. Your innate charm and vivacity makes you welcome most everywhere you go.
*OK, I've already agreed withthe first bit earlier on. To tackle the second portion of this, I am definatley not cut out to be a poly person. I can't stand the thought of sharing my SO's with anyone else, nor do I have the energy to share myself with more than one person at a time (I tend to invest a lot, maybe too much of myself, into any given person). However I could also take variety to mean, constantly changing, and this I don't mind as much since I am kind of always redefining who I am and my interests never really stay too constant, I think it could be intereting to find someone who changed as much as I do as long as we still had that basic sync point at which we got on well and had meaningful dialogue and all that. I hope that makes any sense to anyone but me. I don't really think I'm popular, I mean maybe I am with the friends I have, but it's not like I'm going out left and right like some pied piper of people and picking up new friends with my charm. I think my problem with emotional commitments has more to do with trust issues. I haven't always had the best judgement in the people I choose to have relationships with, and usually get hurt. Thus I always keep some buffer around myself, never really letting myself get 100% there with people, for fear that the consequences could be devestating. I can be a shameless flirt howvere, so I dunno maybe there is more to it than I think there is.*Mars is in 03 Degrees Pisces.Very sensitive and vulnerable, it is difficult for you to assert yourself. At times, you feel quite tired and you will require a lot of sleep in order to maintain your health and strength. You are at your best when you act without your ego being important. You can be very unselfish and considerate of the needs of others. You get the most satisfaction by giving to others when you expect nothing in return. Beware of a tendency to want to always work behind the scenes or to become overly deceptive by doing things behind others' backs.
*Extremely sensitive. I'm always reading way too much into things (for exampel I take it as a personal affont when people don't e-mail me back within a week when in reality they've just been busy or I've just not said something that requires a response). I'm trying to get better about it. I find it difficult to assert myself, mainly due to the conflict avoidance. I don't like to "shake things up". Lately I have been very tired, I thought it was just from Meaghan being so active, or because I'm a little bit sick, but I also wonder if I'm secretly storing energy for something else ( I have this feeling of impending doom that a huge fight is in the works sooner or later). I'm one of those people who puts almost everyone else first. I want all my friends to be happy, and will often without even being asked offer advice of guidance to them whenever possible. I always figured, even if I can't be happy, if everyone else is then that would thereby make me at least feel better having known I helped someone else. Also on the last bit, yeah I hate being the center of attention, I always prefer to hide away in whatever little corner I can, that's why I preferred tech over acting and film projection over selling concessions (when I work at the theatre), hell I usually try to find someone else to call for take-out simply because I'm petrified of talking on the phone ( i only did that well when I was paid for it as part of my Office Manager position). I guess I should get out more but it's all part of that awkward meeting new people thing, I am so afraid I will do or say something stupid I can barely function (meanwhile it's this fear that then causes me to look stupid, like when I met Paolo, I hardly spoke to him I was so nervous I was going to say something unfunny or stupid. Even though we'd e-mailed a few times back and forth. Later I was kicking myself for being such an idiot, because there was no reason why I shouldn't/couldn't just act natural).*
Jupiter is in 11 Degrees Aquarius.Your personal growth occurs when you have the freedom to do things in new and interesting ways - this brings out your natual inventiveness. You are an individualist, but you are also attracted to mass movements that emphasize social betterment and you will devote much time and energy to thier efforts. Very fair-minded and objective, you have extraordinary skills at organization and administration.
*It's possible I could do the most mundane or undesirable task, as long as it's presented to me in an interesting way. An amusing example is that I like to play the game "Trauma Center" but yet I cannot watch RL operation shows on telelvision without wanting to hurl. Yet I jokingly have said, if they were going to award me points (like in the game) I'd think about it in a life and death situation. Obviously this is a bit of an exaggerated metaphor, but things like the fact that I hate ironing, but if I put my headphones on and dance around while I do it, I can get it done. Something like that. If I can figure out a way to make it fun, then I can probably do just abotu anything even if it's something I hate. I do have a strong self-awareness (not necessarily to be confused with a positive self-awareness) but I also strongly belive in things like equal rights, the "global village", going green, those sorts of things. I think if every person does what they can to the best of thier ability to be kind towards thier fellow man (and to the planet) then there's still time to fix the things that are rapidly going wrong. Also I'm seriously contemplating "getting out of Dodge" sometime in the future (read as move to another country, but probably not for another ten or twenty years). Did you ever feel like you were about to get a front row seat to the fall of the Roman Empire? Because I do.*Saturn is in 19 Degrees Gemini.You are such a clear thinker and speaker, with a logical orderly mind, that you are repulsed by abstract, intangible or unorganized thoughts or ideas. But you tend to get uptight about speaking in public because you arfraid to be wrong. Remember that the best way to learn is by making mistakes. Also, you will be so carefully prepared that you probably will not make any mistakes anyway. To be interesting to you, ideas have to be practical and useful.
*Am I really a clear speaker? I don't think they necessarily mean I actually have to be "speaking" for this. I definately do go on and on to make my point understood (if you're reading this or any of my blogs you know what I mean). But I always feel like I overdoit ont he explanation department, but at the same time can't ever figure out how to say what I mean in a shorter way. If I could have an editor that would work, take what i said and then condense it, you know the "Cliff's Notes" version for those with a short attention span. I wouldn't say I am repulsed by intangible ideas, what does that mean really? I mean there's some sort of point to almost everything isn't there? I mean some art, music or performance starts out as not having a poitn and then does anyways. Either as entertainment or to convey a message or feeling. I'm really trying to figure out what a true "pointless endevour" would be and if I would be repulsed by it, but can't think of something atthe moment. I don't like public speaking, not because I'm afraid I'll be wrong, I'm sure I'm wrong a lot actually, but because I'm petrifed more of looking silly or stupid or something (so yeah maybe wrong, but wrong seems more like you assume you're always right and I respect other peoples right to have an opinion other than my own so don't think it's necessarily the right word to use here).*Uranus is in 19 Degrees Libra.You, as well an your entire peer group, have a very free, unstable and unconventional approach to relationships and emotional commitments. You will be attracted to experiments in marriage and shared lifestyles. Personal freedom is more important to you than entangling emoitonal bonds. In the realm of art and aethetics, you are attracted to the bizarre, shocking and unusual.
*Ok, so is this speaking for a generation, or just people born in 1973, or what? I would say generationally (people say seven years plus or minus my age) that this is more or less true. Part of the reason I say this is because if you pay attention there's the beginnings of something happening. The whole civil union issue for one. People (with the exception of really rural areas still) are able to really start claiming the right to thier sexuality, be it gay, transgendered, bi, poly, whatever. It's hard to really pinpoint change, because it comes in small surges over lengthy periods of time. We're still not completely gender or race equal even now more than 100 years since suffrage movements gave that right to women and people of color, and then reiterated thier rights again in the 1960's. But have I noticed that slowly day by day I notice maybe one more person wh even ten or twenty years ago rights or opinions would have been surpressed, yes, and slowly each day that someone stands up for change it will get better still. I dunno know how this turned into a rant on equality, so back to the topic at hand. Personal freedom is very important to me, to the point at which I am struggling with it currently. I rather feel I wouldn't mind being alone in this world (no family, or friends) than to keep being told what I should be or how I should act. Obviously this would never happen as there are plenty of people who would support my right to be the person I want to be, and so even assumign I alenated all my friends and family, I would eventually find new people who would enrich and suport me in a more positive way. Regardless, I find this change difficult to make, because I have such strong emotional bonds to everyone, and dislike alienating anyone from my life, even when they are harmful to me. As far as the art thing, yeah I like it when acts push boundaries or try to go where someone already hasn't, or even if it's just generally something 50% of the population wouldn't necessarily consider entertainment. So yeah I used to really like the Jim Rose Circus Sideshow (Mr. Lifto was my favorite) and people on the fringes of things like fire-eaters, blockheads, sword-swallowers and that sort of "dare to watch" style of amusement.*Neptune is in 06 Degrees Sagittarius.You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems and religious philosohies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be comfortable with the concept of the "global villiage".
*Other than maybe the Sixties and the Renaissance, I think now is probably one of the most interesting times to live as far as being on the forefront of modern ideas and thinking. Possibly the laypeople aren't seeing it yet, but I suspect a shift in consciousness on the horizon. In fact I know a guy who's very much into the Mayan Calendar, and while I haven't yet been able to attend one of his sessions and hear his point of view on the matter, 2012 is the big to-do (similar to the new millenium dealey). A lot of people read this as the impending apocalypse, I myself like to think more on the lines of some sort of catastrophic (in a positive way) change. Rather than be all gloom and doom about it, I kind of hope something along the lines of more global unity, which is also why it's extremely important that the right person be chosen for the next U.S. Presidency, as they will be innaugurated in January 2009 and thus in thier third/going on forth year of presidency (and in case you care, I like Obama). This year also links up with the exact age which numerologically I am supposed to find my true purpose. Being a number 11 - the Master Teacher, I think I am supposed to impart some sort of profound spiritual guidance, personally I can't wait to find out. As far as the "global village" is concerned, it's normally used in respect to the internet. And yes I love the internet, it allows me to talk to and meet people from other walks of life or different parts of the world who I may not have ever gottent he pleasure to have known otherwise. Sometimes maybe I go tooo far with this, as ideally I should maybe travel and get out more to accomplish this, but it works for someone like me who is initially awkward in social situations. I can get to a comfort zone with a person, and then if it's still someone I would really like to know better I haveno problem travelling or what have you to make that happen. I also like to think of the "global village" as something we haven't even discovered yet. This is what I was alluding to a second ago... I still have the optimistic approach that with the right leaders who are actually willing to openly exchange and accept other people's ideas that we could achieve some sort of world harmony (peace perhaps is a bit further off still, but if we could at least not argue so much, that'd be a start). Though I think it won't actually happen, there was a thing (dunno if it was a joke or for real) about Eddie Izzard running for Prime Minister. After I stopped laughing (because I just can't picture voters getting past the whole transexual probably smokes {or at least used to} tons of pot thing) I actually thought, "wow, that wouldn't be such a bad idea". Some of his ideas are expressed directly in his comedy (Europen Union/melting pot is one that immediately comes to mind) but I've also got about two VHS full of interviews and things he's done and often he gets quite politcal, and I'm really just into his ideals, separate from his comedy, because he really seems like he understands where we need to be in order to move forward. I also respect his views on spirtuality, I was seriously contimplating telling him about my "spiritual athiest" concept as it linked up so well with a skit he did in the new show, but alas have no way of guaranteeing it would get past his publicist and on to him. Anyways I'm way off the subject now.*Pluto in 01 Degrees Libra. For your entire generation, this is a time of radical changes in society's attitude toward marriage and interpersonal relationships. There is a general fear and awe at the power inherent in making emotional or contractual commitments - they will not be entered into lightly.
*I've got most of this about covered. But a portion of this I am taking off in a direction they probably didn't mean to go, and that's the bit about the commitment. This was a point I brought up in a response to Paolo's Martin Luther King day post, which then got deleted by MySpace and never really re-wrote, UNTIL NOW! In order to exact change in the world, you've got to have some sense of commitment. You need to figure out what your ideals are and you've got to be willing to fight for them. This is difficult for many people, especially Americans, because we really put a lot of emphasis on status and thingies and as such you don't really want to jeapoardize your comfort level. So for the average person, yeah you might agree that say there's still not equal rights, but how willing are you to make that statement. Some people are only as comforable to the point at which they say, Ok well I treat my fellow man nicely and if it comes up for a vote or somethign I'm all for it. It takes a really exceptional person (case in point MLK or Ghandi) to actually be outspoken about it. And this is because progessive thinking is not without it's pitfalls. It's very likely you could be arrested if you organize a rally (free speach my ass) or you could find yourself socially ridiculed. You could lose the respect of your peers (often true progressive thinkers contributions are not recognized until after thier lifetime) and this doesn't sit well with Mr. & Mrs. Joe America. Because after all we have to work to provide our families with food and shelter and how are you going to do that if you quit your job and/or get fired for your belief system or worse because you've missed a day of work locked up in jail. It's easier to think in the now rather than look towards the future, "well maybe it'll be bad for us now but someday what I am working on will benefit my children or my children's children". It doesn't require you to think and/or to sacrifice, you just wake up in the morning do your thing and go to bed, no muss no fuss. This is what makes the visionaries sacrifiece so great, they are willing to sacrifice themselves for the good of thousands of others at a later point in time. It'd be nice sure if everyone was willing to do that, but unfoortunately egocentrism and looking out for numero uno get in the way most of the time.*
N. Node is in 08 Degrees Capricorn.You rarely get involved closely with anyone unless he or she has something specific and practical to offer you. You tend to be "all business" when it comes to dealing with others. You're usually so intently focused on aparticular goal that you rarely have time for social niceties or casual fellowship. But you can definately be counted on by others to get things done. When you say that you'll do something, you do it. As Such, you're a valuable member of any team situation and will probably rise to a position of leadership within the group. Your trustworhiness and sense of responsibility are unquestioned. But do try to avoid the temptation to "use" others to reach your goals - they might come to resent you.
*Well this is more blunt than I would have liked. I am never intentionally calculating. I do tend to be a bit methodical sometimes, especially with people, if I can't at first meeting figure out how they fit into the grand scheme of things. This is what I meant way earlier abotu being a bit black and white about it. I used to just like you or not, and based on that I hung around with you some more or I didn't. As I get older it is slowly apparent that people who initially may not seem like they hold any interest for me, may do so at a later time. I figured this out mainly by self-reflection, because I certainly leave a very bizarre first impression, and if it weren't for people giving me more than a one chance meeting, I'd probably not have many if any friends at all. Usually these days I find a lot more redeeming qualities in people than I used to, now that I try to be more open minded about things. There are still those select few though, that for whatever reason "rub me the wrong way". What I've lost instead is my "sitck-to-it-iveness". I definately was someone who would always finish my tasks, these days I am much more easily frustrated. If something doesn't work out the way I wantit to it will take me some time to work up the courage to plod on and complete it. Eventually I do still do what I said I would, just sometimes it may take me a few months rather than a day or two like it used to, I'll have to work on improving that. *